i miss the old time....

i dunno y miss the old time we had fight, blamed each other, try to hate each other and try so hard to deny we're in love but when we met, everything's turn upside down......

td i bukak email2 lame kt yahoo..terbace notification2 fb yg lame2 tu..de la dlm setahun dh ak simpan...
ntah nape ak rndu saat2 ak gado dgn c gile ttg cmne both of us werent suppose to f8 about feelings cuz were aldry made for each other...

ak rndu saat2 tu....

erm..

mlm td ak nges g..
ntah la rase sakit sgt aty ni tgk dia cara dia ckp tggi melangit..
blagak, egois...
tp dia ckp dia wat cmtu sbb saje nk ajar ak..nk bg ak rase ape dia rase..

ya ak tau ak byk wat slh..
tp..
patut ke dia hukum ak cmtuh?
smpi xmkn ak dwatnye..
sudahnye ak ttdo kt balkoni..
last2 dia angkat ak masuk blk..
lalu ttdo la ak smpi pg td.....

pg td tepat kul 9.30 pg..
dia msj..
soh ak mkn sbb ak xmkn dr mlm td...
??????
pe la yd de dlm pale otak mamat ni eh..

mlm td b4 dorg kua..dia ckp leklok lak dgn ak..
pelik?
dia ni ok ke x?
ke dia ngh tension then dia lepas kt ak?
(ala by,cm xbese lak....)

mlm td ak ngat nk kemas sume brg2 ak then blk bj trus..
nk tgk sejauh mane dia..
tp nth la..
so ak juz bwk bju bruk2 je blk bj..
baju jln2 still kt sne g...
mlm td ak pk byk sgt smpi ttdo ak..
twok sgt ke ak ni?
byk sgt ke bnde yg ak kne ubah?

isnin dpan dh nk start klas..
ak lak still pening pk sal extend tu..
sbrnye ak xnk extend sbb ak nk abeskn study ak cpt2..
tp peluang kn cume dtg skali..

erm..so ak rase ape yg terbaik skg ak go on la dgn study n life ak cm bese n try ubh bnd2 -ve dlm diri ak..
tol kp adam..
ak kne rilex,cool..n buat bnde yg dia akn makin syg kt ak..
kawal emosi..jd org yg dia suke..
n jgn wat bnde same ape yg dia wat even aty ak sakit
(msj laki len ke...ckp xnk jtuh ke..ape2 la)
sbb adam ckp klu ak bls ape yg dia wat..
means ak dgn dia same je la kn??

ak rase dlm mse 3 thun ak dgn dia..dh byk sgt bnde yg ak dh ubah..
smpi fara n kwn2 ak rmi ckp ak dh lain sgt2..
dh brubah..

ni la pelajaran yg plg susah dlm idup ak..
try to change part of me to be more better person~