1st i dunno what is goin on. really.
2nd he's totally ignoring me. really.
3rd ak yakin yg dia dh baca msj says that ak nk dia. aty ak milik dia. but y he seems so different rite now. REALLY!
4th aku rase ape yg aku wat sume slh. yeah really. cuz bile ak gtau mane ak nk pegi pun dia mrh, bile x gtau lagi la dia mrh kn?
last2 muke ak gak yg jd mgsa dpt tapak tgn dia.
5th m so sad. really, really sad.
6th i dunno what else i can do. really.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Monday, September 5, 2011
BIG mistakes~
hey there bloggy, how r ya?
so so so sooooooo sorry cuz ak mugkir janji. again. eh wait mane ade ak jnji ape2 kt ko kn. aku just ckp if ade ape2 aku gtau ko. kn? jwb la! kn? hehe sengal dh aku ni..
ok let see..
1st - this year eid, bese aje bg aku. nothing special pun.
2nd - i've made a huge stupid mistakes
3rd - practical stuff
sal list yg 1st tu ak rase ak xyah cerita byk pon. cume, well bese la raya. dh besar2 ni nothing much to be expected.
2nd thing ni agak pjg sket ea wahai bloggy. this all started masa awal puasa arituh.1st august 2011.
1st day mid sem exam. (name je mid sem tp pas exam tu xde pun cuti mid sem. haih.. MSU, MSU)
oh chop2! fyi jumaat b4 exam tu aku FAINTED ok. xtau la nape. mujur reen ade. dia anta aku balek.
ok smbung. mase exam tu kt library. mata ak kusyuk la mgadap muke seseorang ni. ye ak pasti itu la orgnye.
sape? sape? sape?
ex-scandal edy. geradline chey. ngat lg x perihal pompan ni dlu?
mane ley lupe mehhhh.. dia sgt rajin anta picha dia kt edy.
aty ak meronta2 suh pegi tny dia exact situation yg slame ni ak btol2 nk tau.
so then afta the short conversation, ak dpt text msj.
text tu mmg ak dh expect ak akn trime. tu pun ak bace lepas kua dr hall jam 5 lbh lpas 2nd paper pd hari tersebut.
text tu ya ofcuz dr edy. ape lagi kne maki la aku. gado cm nk rak.
mlm tu ak kua dgn fara, tong and acai.
ntah cmne. acai mtk kapel blk dgn ak.
blurrrrrr...
then sedar x sedar sebulan pun berlalu.
byk yg ak buat dlm mase sebulan tu.
nah ini bukti MANUSIA BOLEH BERUBAH SEKELIP MATA.
x percaye?
ok i'll prove it to u bloggy.
klu ko la kn. ko ade boyfie. then ko salu msj dia, gtau mane ko pegi, dgn sape, wat ape..
tp dlm mase sebulan tu ko byk diam, x gtau mane ko pegi, dgn sape n wat ape..
plus daripada ko syg sgt kt boyfie ko tu then tibe2 ko rase suke kt org len n xkesah pun klu dia xcall,xmsj n x care sal ko.
ko rase itu satu perubahn yg drastik x?
yeah babe! of cuz la!
it is too obvious kot!
klu ak jd boyfie ko pun, ak akn perasan perubahan tu.
so,this is what happened to me.
ak ngat dgn lahirnye rase suke ak pd acai, ley buat mslh ak dgn edy selesai.
ah no. absolutely nope ok! ape yg akan selesai klu mslh yg sedia ada ko tmbah lg?
haih bloggy maaf la
maybe ko rase cm nk sepak muke ak kn. ko nk dgr citer ak, ak lak g blame ko ape sume. cm ko lak yg buat sume ni. haha sorry!
tipu la klu ak ckp ak xde lgsg rase bersalah atas sume alasan yg ak bg pd edy.
n ak tau dia ley hidu perbuatan pelik ak sepnjang sebulan ni. org dh knl lame. xkn la x perasan.
so sume ni berakhir mase hari ak pulang ke umah.
ari sabtu baru2 ni.
well mungkin ak terlalu presure sbb 1st xtau nk pilih sape.
2nd ak makin xtahan dgn abah yg mnjekn sgt ayap tu.
xperlu la kot ak cerita ap dia wat. aty ak sakit. sgt.
so mlm tu aku kua ke damansara. tgk wyg. conan the barbarian. best gak la. not bad. pastu jln2 tanpa hala tuju.
mlm tu edy call ak berpuluh kali tnp henti.
makin lame, makin nk pecah jntung aku. bkn x nk jwb call tu tp ak xtau nk ckp ape.
yela kn dh kua x bgtau org tu. kantoi la nnt. kang nk bg alasan ape kua x bgtau dia. haih...
so ak smpi umah dlm kul 3 lebih cmtuh. nk dekat kul 4 dh pun. shit! mase ak nk parking kete tu mmg edy yg ak nmpk dlu. damn! mati la ak. mati la ak. tu je la yg bermain kt fikiran ak mase tu.
pas ak masuk umah letak btg, ak kua blk. sbb ak yakin edy xkn berganjak selagi ak x dtg mengadap dia.
dlm aty rase cm nk menyumpah pun ade. knp la smpi cni dia cari aku?
hoi cik wanna! ko ni dh knp. dh sah2 mamat tu risau kt ko. mmg la smpi uma dia cr ko! ngoks!
then pas aku kua je umah, edy trus tarik rmbut aku, seret ak atas jln raye tu. ak jerit2 mtk dia lepaskn. ak x pndang tmpt len melainkn satu part je. tangan dia. harus dh menggigil. ni klu ak kne tam...
PANG! berdesing jap telinga ak. ak rse cm dunia ni bepusing 360 darjah. thanks edy sbb bg pelempang. SAKIT!
puas dia tny ak, mane ak pegi. ak hnye diam n kata x ade ape2 berulang kali.
mase ngah pergelutan tu, ak sempat toleh blkg, ak nmpk cm ade sumone kt ujung jln. tp siapa?
then ak nmpk ade kete kancil silver. ejad?? dia wat ape kt cni? edy dtg dgn dia? tp knp dgn ejad? knp susahkn dia?
dlm aty dh cm washing machine mase tu. xtau nk imagine cmne. tp siuz. horrible gile.
then lepas ak cerita satu persatu, edy suruh ak pack brg2 ak n ikut dia blk sunway. ak ckp xley cuz mase tu dh nk subuh.
tp last2 ak blk gak nk amik brg2
masuk je pintu uma, abah kt bwh ntah tgh wat ape.
dia tny ak mcm2. ak buat bodo trus nek n nk blah cpt2.
abah ape lagi. membebel x benti2. ak nek geram. ak diam pun kene, ckp pun kene.
dia ugut nk rosakkn kete ak lar.
dia x bg aku kwn dgn jntan la.
mane ak pegi dia nk anta la
ak dh rase cm.
what the fuck! x payah la kn! klu ayap tu sume boleh
alasan ape ko tau?
sbb ayap dh jumpe pompan tu (awek dia) nye parent.
eh2 edy tu xpnah jumpe parent ak ke. jumpe kn? tp dia yg xnk trime!
dia x pk ke if ayap tu xkeje, parent pompan tu nk ke trime dia. even pompan tu pun lum tentu lg la nk stay dgn dia!
bodoh gile!
ak call edy nges2 ckp ak dh xtahan.
pas line clear, ak gerak kua. tp kunci kete ak tglkn atas meja sbb ak xnk tu jd isu. again.
edy bwk ak blk. smpi je umah, ak smbung nges lg. sbb ak rase aty ak ni sakit sgt.
actually,mase raye kt mlaka aritu. ak ade cntct dgn wannyfura blk.
then mase tu ak luah ap yg tependam dlm aty. antara 2. kononye.
kne basuh gak la dgn c kecik tu.
pg smlm ak acai call ak 2o kali. msj ak tny ak kt ne.
ak cume jwb yg ak butuh mase sendirian.
pikir ap nk ckp dgn dia.
tgh hari ni ak on fb, ak tgk. dia dh remove rship status tu.
ok ak tau dia sedey. mungkin nk pujuk aty dia. biar la.
ok jup. otak ak pening ni pk nk tulis ape lg
oraite ak cerita dulu la sal praktikal okie.
nnt ak praktikal kt kelana business centre aw. start december ni kot.
ok jump back to the story.smpi mne td?
oh ha..sal tu.haha
wanny pesan kt ak jgn tamak. dia soh ak stay je dgn edy, saba n bg edy mase.
if btol edy yg ak tggu selama ni, then go for it. katanya.
kata2 pendorong dr wanny wat ak tambah yakin yg ak kene let go acai demi kebaikan ak gak.
for now, ak tau edy menyimpan dendam. opss bukan dendam tp simpan segala ape yg ak wat tnpa beri sebarang kemaafan. dia kn susa nk maafkn org. cm xtau kn..
yer..sume ni slh ak. slh ak sbb ak lari dr masalah. slh cuz ak x communicate dgn edy. plus ak xjujur dgn dia.
maaf edy. aby tau maaf xkn boleh heal rase kesal dlm aty edy. m so sorry.
oh ya.rmbut ak dh pjg! teehee.. gedik tu pun nk gtau. lalala..
sebenarnye ade byk lg cerita yg ak xsempat nk share dgn ko. sbb byk sgt!
tu pun ak rase lum lg ak cerita sal event kt putrajaya ujg bln 5 yg lepas. klu xsilap ak la.
sal ap yg jd kt aku bln 3 aritu pun ak xcerita lg kn.hurm..
nnt la..
so what i do now is i have to suck the poison out. poison yg ak bg pd edy.
ak tau if aku suck it out. it will return to me. but i've to do it. sbb ak yg suntik racun tu dulu.
actually bloggy, bday acai ari kames ni. ngat lg thun lepas ak ngn fara celeb bday dia kt dataran. beli kek sepotong then share2. erm tp thun ni. ntah la. i miss him. as a fren. cuz he's a gud one. btol la wanny ckp, if dia xmsj x ape. means selame ni dia text ak sume sbb nk tackle ak blk. dats it. even edy pun warned me cmtuh..erm...
PADAN MUKA aku kn.
x pasal2 je kene pelempang sebijik.
ha buat la lgi ye cik wana.
sila..sila..
so so so sooooooo sorry cuz ak mugkir janji. again. eh wait mane ade ak jnji ape2 kt ko kn. aku just ckp if ade ape2 aku gtau ko. kn? jwb la! kn? hehe sengal dh aku ni..
ok let see..
1st - this year eid, bese aje bg aku. nothing special pun.
2nd - i've made a huge stupid mistakes
3rd - practical stuff
sal list yg 1st tu ak rase ak xyah cerita byk pon. cume, well bese la raya. dh besar2 ni nothing much to be expected.
2nd thing ni agak pjg sket ea wahai bloggy. this all started masa awal puasa arituh.1st august 2011.
1st day mid sem exam. (name je mid sem tp pas exam tu xde pun cuti mid sem. haih.. MSU, MSU)
oh chop2! fyi jumaat b4 exam tu aku FAINTED ok. xtau la nape. mujur reen ade. dia anta aku balek.
ok smbung. mase exam tu kt library. mata ak kusyuk la mgadap muke seseorang ni. ye ak pasti itu la orgnye.
sape? sape? sape?
ex-scandal edy. geradline chey. ngat lg x perihal pompan ni dlu?
mane ley lupe mehhhh.. dia sgt rajin anta picha dia kt edy.
aty ak meronta2 suh pegi tny dia exact situation yg slame ni ak btol2 nk tau.
so then afta the short conversation, ak dpt text msj.
text tu mmg ak dh expect ak akn trime. tu pun ak bace lepas kua dr hall jam 5 lbh lpas 2nd paper pd hari tersebut.
text tu ya ofcuz dr edy. ape lagi kne maki la aku. gado cm nk rak.
mlm tu ak kua dgn fara, tong and acai.
ntah cmne. acai mtk kapel blk dgn ak.
blurrrrrr...
then sedar x sedar sebulan pun berlalu.
byk yg ak buat dlm mase sebulan tu.
nah ini bukti MANUSIA BOLEH BERUBAH SEKELIP MATA.
x percaye?
ok i'll prove it to u bloggy.
klu ko la kn. ko ade boyfie. then ko salu msj dia, gtau mane ko pegi, dgn sape, wat ape..
tp dlm mase sebulan tu ko byk diam, x gtau mane ko pegi, dgn sape n wat ape..
plus daripada ko syg sgt kt boyfie ko tu then tibe2 ko rase suke kt org len n xkesah pun klu dia xcall,xmsj n x care sal ko.
ko rase itu satu perubahn yg drastik x?
yeah babe! of cuz la!
it is too obvious kot!
klu ak jd boyfie ko pun, ak akn perasan perubahan tu.
so,this is what happened to me.
ak ngat dgn lahirnye rase suke ak pd acai, ley buat mslh ak dgn edy selesai.
ah no. absolutely nope ok! ape yg akan selesai klu mslh yg sedia ada ko tmbah lg?
haih bloggy maaf la
maybe ko rase cm nk sepak muke ak kn. ko nk dgr citer ak, ak lak g blame ko ape sume. cm ko lak yg buat sume ni. haha sorry!
tipu la klu ak ckp ak xde lgsg rase bersalah atas sume alasan yg ak bg pd edy.
n ak tau dia ley hidu perbuatan pelik ak sepnjang sebulan ni. org dh knl lame. xkn la x perasan.
so sume ni berakhir mase hari ak pulang ke umah.
ari sabtu baru2 ni.
well mungkin ak terlalu presure sbb 1st xtau nk pilih sape.
2nd ak makin xtahan dgn abah yg mnjekn sgt ayap tu.
xperlu la kot ak cerita ap dia wat. aty ak sakit. sgt.
so mlm tu aku kua ke damansara. tgk wyg. conan the barbarian. best gak la. not bad. pastu jln2 tanpa hala tuju.
mlm tu edy call ak berpuluh kali tnp henti.
makin lame, makin nk pecah jntung aku. bkn x nk jwb call tu tp ak xtau nk ckp ape.
yela kn dh kua x bgtau org tu. kantoi la nnt. kang nk bg alasan ape kua x bgtau dia. haih...
so ak smpi umah dlm kul 3 lebih cmtuh. nk dekat kul 4 dh pun. shit! mase ak nk parking kete tu mmg edy yg ak nmpk dlu. damn! mati la ak. mati la ak. tu je la yg bermain kt fikiran ak mase tu.
pas ak masuk umah letak btg, ak kua blk. sbb ak yakin edy xkn berganjak selagi ak x dtg mengadap dia.
dlm aty rase cm nk menyumpah pun ade. knp la smpi cni dia cari aku?
hoi cik wanna! ko ni dh knp. dh sah2 mamat tu risau kt ko. mmg la smpi uma dia cr ko! ngoks!
then pas aku kua je umah, edy trus tarik rmbut aku, seret ak atas jln raye tu. ak jerit2 mtk dia lepaskn. ak x pndang tmpt len melainkn satu part je. tangan dia. harus dh menggigil. ni klu ak kne tam...
PANG! berdesing jap telinga ak. ak rse cm dunia ni bepusing 360 darjah. thanks edy sbb bg pelempang. SAKIT!
puas dia tny ak, mane ak pegi. ak hnye diam n kata x ade ape2 berulang kali.
mase ngah pergelutan tu, ak sempat toleh blkg, ak nmpk cm ade sumone kt ujung jln. tp siapa?
then ak nmpk ade kete kancil silver. ejad?? dia wat ape kt cni? edy dtg dgn dia? tp knp dgn ejad? knp susahkn dia?
dlm aty dh cm washing machine mase tu. xtau nk imagine cmne. tp siuz. horrible gile.
then lepas ak cerita satu persatu, edy suruh ak pack brg2 ak n ikut dia blk sunway. ak ckp xley cuz mase tu dh nk subuh.
tp last2 ak blk gak nk amik brg2
masuk je pintu uma, abah kt bwh ntah tgh wat ape.
dia tny ak mcm2. ak buat bodo trus nek n nk blah cpt2.
abah ape lagi. membebel x benti2. ak nek geram. ak diam pun kene, ckp pun kene.
dia ugut nk rosakkn kete ak lar.
dia x bg aku kwn dgn jntan la.
mane ak pegi dia nk anta la
ak dh rase cm.
what the fuck! x payah la kn! klu ayap tu sume boleh
alasan ape ko tau?
sbb ayap dh jumpe pompan tu (awek dia) nye parent.
eh2 edy tu xpnah jumpe parent ak ke. jumpe kn? tp dia yg xnk trime!
dia x pk ke if ayap tu xkeje, parent pompan tu nk ke trime dia. even pompan tu pun lum tentu lg la nk stay dgn dia!
bodoh gile!
ak call edy nges2 ckp ak dh xtahan.
pas line clear, ak gerak kua. tp kunci kete ak tglkn atas meja sbb ak xnk tu jd isu. again.
edy bwk ak blk. smpi je umah, ak smbung nges lg. sbb ak rase aty ak ni sakit sgt.
actually,mase raye kt mlaka aritu. ak ade cntct dgn wannyfura blk.
then mase tu ak luah ap yg tependam dlm aty. antara 2. kononye.
kne basuh gak la dgn c kecik tu.
pg smlm ak acai call ak 2o kali. msj ak tny ak kt ne.
ak cume jwb yg ak butuh mase sendirian.
pikir ap nk ckp dgn dia.
tgh hari ni ak on fb, ak tgk. dia dh remove rship status tu.
ok ak tau dia sedey. mungkin nk pujuk aty dia. biar la.
ok jup. otak ak pening ni pk nk tulis ape lg
oraite ak cerita dulu la sal praktikal okie.
nnt ak praktikal kt kelana business centre aw. start december ni kot.
ok jump back to the story.smpi mne td?
oh ha..sal tu.haha
wanny pesan kt ak jgn tamak. dia soh ak stay je dgn edy, saba n bg edy mase.
if btol edy yg ak tggu selama ni, then go for it. katanya.
kata2 pendorong dr wanny wat ak tambah yakin yg ak kene let go acai demi kebaikan ak gak.
for now, ak tau edy menyimpan dendam. opss bukan dendam tp simpan segala ape yg ak wat tnpa beri sebarang kemaafan. dia kn susa nk maafkn org. cm xtau kn..
yer..sume ni slh ak. slh ak sbb ak lari dr masalah. slh cuz ak x communicate dgn edy. plus ak xjujur dgn dia.
maaf edy. aby tau maaf xkn boleh heal rase kesal dlm aty edy. m so sorry.
oh ya.rmbut ak dh pjg! teehee.. gedik tu pun nk gtau. lalala..
sebenarnye ade byk lg cerita yg ak xsempat nk share dgn ko. sbb byk sgt!
tu pun ak rase lum lg ak cerita sal event kt putrajaya ujg bln 5 yg lepas. klu xsilap ak la.
sal ap yg jd kt aku bln 3 aritu pun ak xcerita lg kn.hurm..
nnt la..
so what i do now is i have to suck the poison out. poison yg ak bg pd edy.
ak tau if aku suck it out. it will return to me. but i've to do it. sbb ak yg suntik racun tu dulu.
actually bloggy, bday acai ari kames ni. ngat lg thun lepas ak ngn fara celeb bday dia kt dataran. beli kek sepotong then share2. erm tp thun ni. ntah la. i miss him. as a fren. cuz he's a gud one. btol la wanny ckp, if dia xmsj x ape. means selame ni dia text ak sume sbb nk tackle ak blk. dats it. even edy pun warned me cmtuh..erm...
PADAN MUKA aku kn.
x pasal2 je kene pelempang sebijik.
ha buat la lgi ye cik wana.
sila..sila..
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