dear december..

hi december. we meet again. but 1st thing 1st, bagi aku share dulu dgn dgn miss bloggy ni ok? LOL.
hey there miss bloggy, ok lah aku pun sebenar nya macam blur x tau nk start dari mana. sbb dah lama sgt x berceloteh dengan kau ni. ok lah. lets start with september. (haih nk taip september pun lembab. tiba-tiba jadi blur)
1st raya this raya, biasa-biasa je.
2nd eddy's 23rd birthday pun ala kadar sahaja. just watched movie (bini-biniku gangster), made muffins and bought him purple tie. aku siap skip kelas advance II semata-mata nk buat surprise kt dia. well, i've made it again this year.

october
my 6th semester finals was ok. i guess. all B's! can you imagine, i've no A in my exam slip! rasa horibble gila. but bersyukur lah dari dpt result teruk and x dapat pergi internship kn.
ahha, talking about internship, currently, i work at Ansell Shah Alam S/B. big company. rasa nya lah. hehe.

november
my 23rd birthday was ok though. watched tower heist with family. eddy? erm.. none. mungkin x ada rezki aku tahun ni utk celeb dgn dia. aunty lily bagi juicy couture pink watch. tp dah jahanam. bukan aku yg x jaga, tp all screws tercabut sendiri and kejap mati, kejap jalan. serious horror.
next thing, twilight saga : breaking dawn part 1. agak pissed off sbb byk part dia cut off. dah lah tgk twice kt cinema pulak tu. sabar aje la.

ok december, back to you.
on 4th december, pegi sunway lagoon. family day proton. tp x pegi pun main puas2. sbb too many people. jadi rimas n semak. n guess what. aku terserempak dgn wafiy. damn. terus teringat benda2 lama.
2nd, kelmarin tgk mission impossible : ghost protocol with eddy. IMAX at sunway. pening sbb mengadap screen over size for the whole 2 hours and half. but puas hati sbb cerita tu best. hehe. mlm smlm MI4 again with family pulak. mlm ni, alvin and chipmunks 3. hehe movie marathon minggu ni.
3rd, ouh ya, bloggy. ingat lagi x aisyah dgn shahrul? sure aku rasa ingatan ko pun mesti kuat mcm aku kn.
well, early on december hari tu, aku and eddy, pergi la rumah baru they all kt puchong. wanna know what happened? dorang dah tunang and ada baby. amirul haikal. sedap kan nama tu? erm.. the only thing yang keep playing through my mind masa aku dukung baby tu was my baby. i wish he were there too at that time.
i wish i could find the right words how to say m truly sorry.
4th, duit pt pun x masuk lagi. oh ya, at last aku dpt gak pki blackberry. present from mom and dad. tp jahanam 4 this moment. x boleh connect mobile network. grrr... tension.
5th, next week sha beranang kahwin. maybe x dpt pergi cuz kene follow family pegi holiday kt kuantan. erm.. ramai dh kwn2 skolah, study diploma yg dh kahwin. yg dh ade baby pun ramai. its just make me think, jodoh aku bila nk sampai seru ni? hahahaha. gila.
6th, last wekeend, eddy bwk aku blk bp. at last kn. after 2 years aku x jejak kaki kt umah dia. it begin on 5/12/11 ari tu masa eddy's sis raptai convo. so eddy ajak aku pergi. alhamdulillah everything was fine.  ala, klu aku x ikut pergi, mcm mana dia nk sampai putrajaya tu kan.so, so, so.. masa blk bp tu pun ake demam teruk. 2 malam x tidur lena cuz demam dtg serang. but parent dia jaga aku just like their own daughter. siap beli kan murtabak lagi semata-mata sbb aku teringin.

7th, actually, i just woke up. sbb nightmare aku terjaga. ha tu la sape suruh gatal tidur petang. padan muka.
guess what apa yg aku mimpi?
well part yg paling aku ingat was, lia dtg balik untuk amik a person who was once hers. aku macam org gila nangis, ya eddy pun. tapi aku pelik kenapa eddy still decide to walkaway with her. after apa yg dah berlaku?
damn it. apa maksud mimpi tu pun aku x pasti.

aku dgn eddy. alhamdulillah so far, we making through life together x kira la either susah or senang. aku bersyukur sbb allah still bagi aku peluang untuk terus jaga and sayang dia. even kadang2 aku masih x paham kenapa perlu kami bersama, and how things work. dia pun dh banyak berubah. x macam dulu. he's more responsible, bersederhana, appreciate me and accept me for who i are. aku pun masih tengah belajar how to let go benda yg dah lepas. memang susah. aku x nafikan. but life must go on right. so i just live my life the way i want to. but this time aku betul-betul ikut je flow. ibarat duduk dia atas sampan and biar arus bawa kemana sahaja mengikut haluan yg ditentukan-Nya.
adui jiwang betul. sudah-sudah lah tu oi.. hehe.

erm...sebenarnya aku byk lagi benda nk share dgn kau. but i think later la kot. ingatan aku  x berapa nk kuat sgt macam dulu. hehe. lagi pun nk kena siap-siap nk keluar ni. hehe. papai.